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Shell
03:17
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I won’t go to the doctor
Because when I get help
I won’t be able to write
Any more albums about killing myself
I’ll cry myself to sleep tonight
With shallow breaths
Maybe I’ll miss waking up
Feeling like I never slept
Sad words
Stolen melodies
Basic chords
No grasp on reality
I miss your smoke in my lungs
I miss the rain on foggy windows
I’ve been letting go for so long
It feels like I gave up years ago
The rain on the rooftops helps me sleep
When I’m thinking too much about everything
But we’ve been in a drought for years so
I haven’t dreamt of anything
Except, sad words
Stolen melodies
Basic chords
Daydreams of fatalities
There are so many beautiful people
And maybe someday I
I could be one of them
But that would be the day that I die
I feel like I have lied to
Every person that I’ve ever known
It feels like even if I die in your arms
I would still be dying alone
With my, sad words
Stolen melodies
Basic chords
And my own mortality
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This is
This is the first time I'm not mad I can't sleep at three am
Your hand
Your hand is in mine and I can
Finally understand
There are
There are three of us on this couch
And two in the chair to the right
We met
Wet met months ago
But we'll always remember nights like tonight
I've never felt so loved
I've never so needed
I've never promised myself that
I won't let my friends be mistreated
Please Don't ever doubt your potential
You have all helped me grow
You all have been so influential
You saved me more than you know
I know that at times we falter
I know at times things get rough
But for the first time, all your love
Has Made me feel like I was enough
Like maybe
Maybe
I was enough
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3. |
Everclear Road
05:17
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I drove past your house today
I wondered if you’re still alive
We haven’t spoken since the darker days
We haven’t lived since you almost died
It was me who made the change for you
I saved you from yourself
I was there for you when you needed me
I was the one who cared about your health
I can still see the blood going down the drain
I can still see you opening your vein
I guess you don’t need me anymore
I’m glad I helped you when I could
I wish that you could be there for me now
Maybe deep down I think you still would
Because now I know how you felt
Because now I could use your help
But I know now more
Than I ever did before
I need to move on
It’s time to close the door
I’m never going back
To Everclear road, Everclear road
I’ve been having dreams lately
That we’re close and we still talk
I smile but when I wake it fades away
And I’m left alone with my thoughts
I hate what you did
But that doesn’t mean I don’t still miss you a little bit
But I know now more
Than I ever did before
I need to move on
It’s time to close the door
I’m never going back
To Everclear road, Everclear road
I’ve shut the door
I just can’t miss you anymore
I’ll take my chances on my own
Since you’ve left I’ve really grown
But I still don’t think it’s fair
After all I did and you don’t care
It has finally become clear
I’ve shed my final tear
I’m never going back
To Everclear road, Everclear road
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I make my own issues
With no way to solve them
I know that you just met me
And I’ve already become your problem
So I guess that I’ll go smoke
Because it makes me feel cool
In a way that means someday
I might mean something to you
Because I’ll seek your validation
Before I can find my own
But I won’t tell you about the anguish
That I feel in my bones
Maybe you would understand
But then maybe you might not
I hope you understand why
I don’t take that risk a lot
Because the fear of losing someone
Of them not wanting to stay
Is the same fucking reason that
I push everyone away
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I've changed so much in the past four months
I came back and everything's the same
The people are lovely but they don't seem to live
I'm living in some strange game
The doors are open and the minds are closed
No one speaks out but everyone's opposed
It seems like people always say never
I cannot live here for ever
I don't wanna die in Manchester
I don't wanna die in Manchester
No one thinks too deep
In the city that always sleeps
I don't wanna die in Manchester
I need change to want to live
And here doesn't exist
This poor old town is just waiting to die
I think about all the world that I missed
I'm not taking a big leap
But I'm done with counting sheep
I'm tired of looking at my world
through rose colored wine glasses
I don't wanna die in Manchester
I don't wanna die in Manchester
I love my family
But what is this town is doing to me
I don't know where I want to go
But I don't want to call this place home
I don't want to die in Manchester
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6. |
This Too Comes By Hard
02:19
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I’ve found the bitter end of my youth
I can't differentiate my dreams and the truth
I thought the voices in your head were supposed to tell you what you want to hear
You don't need me to keep making you cry
You just need me to find new ways to die
You and me both love the thing that we live to fear
Blood in my mouth
There is no way out
Of this evil life
Don't know where to begin
In the house of sin
But I guess we'll try
I was put on this earth to break your heart
And I'm truly sorry that I had a late start
But I'd rather die alone than end up like you
I've been trying so hard to slip away and be free
No matter what I try you keep waking me
I can't tell you I love you because I don't know it is true
You'll find that dying
Is the only way to escape me
I'll find that dying
Is the only way to save me
You'll find that dying
Is the only way to escape me
I'll find that dying
Is the only way to save me
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7. |
Arizona Song
01:50
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I want to be with you on the west Texas highway
The evening sun warm in its song
We could pack our bags and run from what we own
From those who said we wouldn’t make it, and the rest who were wrong
I want to be with you outside my dreams
So I can hold you in my arms
And I think of the lie I told you again and again when I said
I wouldn’t let your demons do you harm
I didn’t feel you leaving until you were already gone
I’ll have to find another whoever
I didn’t know I was lying when I said
That I’d love you forever
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8. |
First Day Back
02:04
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I saw you today day for the first time in a while
I realized I didn't miss you or your smile
It made my stomach ache to talk to the world’s biggest snake
I hope I never have to see you again
I talked to you about my life but we both knew it was strange
I didn't want to say I’ve been happy since everything changed
Neither of us wanted to stay when we walked away
And I hope I never have to see you again
You made me miserable last time I checked
I hope you ruin your own life next
You told me all your stories to try to sound cool
Sounds like you'll have trouble staying in school
I hope you don’t snort coke like you said I don’t want you dead
I just want to never have to see you again
I hope I never have to see you again
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Matt Block Hampstead, Maryland
Hampstead, MD - Salisbury, MD
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